Thursday, December 02, 2010

Christmas is coming...

And I'm just not feeling it yet.

I have a toddler and feel like Christmas should just be pouring out of me as I watch her delight in the joys of the season. But instead I feel like it's just another day, just another time.

We bought our tree in North Carolina-where all good Christmas trees come from ;) It drove 11 hours on top of the car and listened to Sophie ask over and over "Where tree?" But it is still sitting outside on the porch.

We rearranged some of the furniture in our living room last night to accommodate the tree but that only reminded me of how small our place is and that the clutter that seems to be everywhere is everywhere because I don't have any other damn place to put it!

I love the celebration of Advent and expectation of Christmas and all that it represents-birth, renewal, joy, family, giving. But I'm nearly a week behind on that too because I have yet to unearth our advent wreath, candles, and prayer book.

I had hoped to make an Advent calendar but at this point should just skip it or buy the one from Wegmans with chocolate candy inside!

I just want to feel it. Feel the magic and looking at Christmas through MY child's eyes. But it all seems so distant to me.


jenn said...

You deserve an easy year. Go buy the chocolate calendar & extra Hershey kisses so you can have the chocolate and Sophie can have the kisses. Tonight: Put the tree up, add some lights and you won't even see the clutter around it. Scoot some of it out of the way and lay underneath and share the joy of looking up a Christmas tree from the floor with Sophie.

Michelle said...

I completely understand. I'm not feeling it so much that I think I am skipping Christmas cards this year. There is only so much that can be done.